drama setter

Job!

2006-07-19T18:23:58Z

John got the job! He waited an hour in line for the interview because they were interviewing other people. The interview lasted maybe 3 minutes. The guy said "I'll make this short and sweet, you're hired." He would have been getting paid $7.25 (which is what they start out paying) but he said "I'll pay you $7.50, just for your daughter" Awesome. He's thrilled to start work. This is a job he's wanted for awhile and I believe he will love it. He goes back in an hour for a drug test and then probably starts work tomorrow or the next day!

Things will be better now that he's working. Lets hope so anyway. I just can't wait until he starts getting paid again!

Now I've got to get a job so we're both bringing in money.

If you haven't noticed already, my website is back! Now I've got to upload everything again since it was all lost when I switched to a shared host.

Bad night

2006-07-19T14:58:01Z

John and I had a pretty bad fight last night. Not going to get into what it was about because it's stupid anyway. We finally worked it out. We have to work some shit out before we get married. If that means counseling then whatever. I'm not getting married when we both have all this anger built up inside.

We finally got around to unpacking the last few boxes we had. Mostly junk that is useless and I threw away. We have no room in our closet. All 3 of us (John, Haleigh and I) have WAY too many clothes!!

I bought a new hosting plan yesterday. I changed my nameservers this morning so it can take up to 48 hours for it to work. FINALLY my site will be back up! Now lets hope my bandwidth doesn't run out in 4 days like this month. They told me that I had a massive amount of hits and people were hotlinking pictures.

Haleigh slept for 8 hours last night! I was so happy. She fell asleep at 1 and woke up at 9. Man I wish it was like that every night! She had a 5 hour nap during the day so I was afraid she wouldn't sleep at night. I was wrong!!

John's interview is in an hour so I've got to go get dressed. Hopefully he'll get hired today. Then we're going to the pool for sure.

Hot

2006-07-18T17:43:08Z

It's so hot here. I hate it. Off to the pool I go. That is if I can get Haleigh to quit crying whenever we put her in her crib. She will only sleep if you're holding her or she's in her swing or bouncer. She's been like that since Sunday. Luckily she sleeps 4 hours at a time at night.

Still not very happy here. Stressed out as usual. Nothing new.

Something is going on with my mom's debit card. When she put the money I gave her for my website in, it froze I guess. Which is from it being negative for so long. Hopefully within the next few days it will work. I plan to buy a regular hosting plan instead of reseller so it's cheaper and I don't even use the reseller option. It will save a lot of money and I'll be able to host 10 domains on there! Don't really know what I was thinking when I bought a reseller and not even use it.

Better.

2006-07-17T17:51:07Z

Things are better today. I think all I needed was some sleep and much needed quality time with John.

Everyone was just so tired yesterday so they were in a bad mood. My mom is better today. She has an interview with a cellphone company tomorrow. I hope she gets it because that means free service! John has another interview here. Both places that has called him back are the two places he really wanted to work at so I'm happy for him. I hope he gets both jobs. One is only part time so he would work the other one at night.

We did the feet sculpture of Haleigh's feet this morning. It didn't go too well. She wouldn't keep her feet still to get a good imprint. I hope it turns out alright though. She slept excellent for us last night! She slept 4-5 hours between feedings and ate a bunch for us without throwing up. The other night she was up every 2 hours and not eating much so that's part of the reason we were so tired.

My mom and I are going to get things set up with WIC and Medicaid today. Hopefully going to get more formula too because we're running low. It will only last until tomorrow night I'm sure so if we can't get it through WIC we'll go buy her some.

I want to go swimming so bad but the pools are closed on Mondays for cleaning. It's gonna be in the 100's all week! It sucks ass. I hate it.

We are still planning on saving money to move back to Illinois. I'm hoping by next summer we will be able to. We'll be married, I'll be 18, and we can get our own place by then. My dad already told me he would try to help us get a place.

Still haven't got around to upgrading my site. I promise I will do it soon. Not sure when but soon.

I've had enough

2006-07-17T00:19:34Z

I am moving back to Illinois as soon as possible. I'm going to go get a job and save all the money to move back. John's mom will let us stay there until we can get our own place. I can't stand it here. All everyone does is argue. Everyone is in a bad mood all the time and I'm not dealing with it. The first few minutes we get here I start arguing with my mom and then I'm pissed off at her so it causes John and I to argue. I don't care if I'm working at McDonald's or not, it doesn't matter at this point. It's driving me crazy to the point I'm crying all day. I don't have motivation to do anything. I was so happy in Illinois. John's family helps us out more than my mom does. Not with money because my grandma helps us out with that. But if we ever need anyone to watch Haleigh, any of his 4 aunts, his mom, his sister, his grandparents, anyone... will be happy to do so. I don't ever ask my mom to watch Haleigh. She offers to. Yeah I'm thankful my mom lets us live here for free right now but I can't deal with the drama. I have people down there I can talk to, hang out with, just to get my mind off things. If John and I go to school down there we can live in a 4 bedroom dorm for $400 a month, utilities paid for. I don't know much about that but that is what his sister told us. I doubt it's co-ed but if we were married I don't know if it would be different. We could even get an apartment with her if we wanted. Go half on everything.

I'm to the point where I don't even care. Maybe I'm just saying all this because I'm pissed off right now. I honestly don't know what's going to happen in the future. Right now I just know I want out of this fucking place!

John's interview went well. He had 2 interviews today and they're calling him tomorrow to schedule a third. Hopefully that means they want to hire him. Lets hope so because it's a great job and pays better than any other ones he's applied for. I'm going to the Walmart's tomorrow and a bunch of other places, if I have no luck with any of those in 2 weeks, I'm going to McDonald's.

Right now I'm going to the pool for a little bit to cool off. It reached 106 degrees today! Too damn hot for me, I know that's for damn sure.

I still haven't got around to upgrading my site. I don't really care to right now. It's just whatever to me.

I miss home.

2006-07-16T16:11:19Z

Illinois was a blast. The ride down there went by pretty fast because we drove my grandma's brand new van. Man, was that nice or what! We watched movies on the way there such as The Notebook, Scarface, and Brother's Grimm. Haleigh did good on the way there. We stopped about 4 times total so we got there in about 8 hours.

We went to my dad's house first since we had to take my brother there anyway. We hung out there for about 2 hours or so then went to John's aunt's to surprise Amanda. We got there at 8:30, she got off work at 9 so his aunt brought her home and we were in the living room. She was yelling for her little cousin Josie and John yelled "AMANDA!" She took a deep breath and starts freaking out, comes to hug me, hugs John and then held Haleigh. It was so worth it. Her face when she first saw us was priceless! We took Haleigh to his mom's house so we could go hang out for a little bit. We rented some movies and saw a few friends, then got home around midnight and stayed up until 4AM talking.

The next day we were up early as hell so we got 3 hours of sleep. Doesn't matter. We have all the time in the world for sleep but don't have much time to spend with Amanda. We went to some friend's houses, then went to my dad's. Later that night we went to the fair. Amanda and I rode rides and John played a few games. He won Haleigh a little stuffed elephant. We had a blast riding rides! But had even more fun hanging out with Amanda! We got home around 1AM and went to bed because we were so tired.

We left that morning at 10 and got home at 8. Not too bad. I drove half the way back because my mom was so tired. I hated driving on the highway because the speed limit was 75. Plus people were idiots!

Now that I'm home, I'm depressed again. Not even 5 minutes after being back did I start crying my eyes out. I loved it so much in Illinois and had so much fun. But I'm going to try and make the best of it here. I plan to get a job soon and save money to move back. John has a job interview today at the place he really wanted to work at so lets hope he gets hired! I think they start out at $7.50 too. $1.00 more than in Illinois!

John's mom bought Haleigh a bunch of clothes, Ocean Wonders Aquarium, Aquarium Bath Tub and a doll. She loves watching the crib light. I do too, it's neat.

Well, I'm still very tired because Haleigh was up all night so I'm getting some sleep and taking John to his interview.

My website should be up before Tuesday. I plan to upgrade my account later on today.

Power outage

2006-07-12T00:54:04Z

Monday night we had a really bad storm and our power went out. John and I were in the middle of cleaning our room so it was a mess and when the lights went I stumbled out of the room tripping over everything to get to Haleigh. Thankfully my mom already had her in her arms. We searched for candles and flashlights using our cellphones for light. The storm was pretty bad. There were thousands of people whose power was out. Our building and the townhouses were the only ones that went out at the apartment complex. It got so hot that I was down in my bra and underwear and was sweating (I never sweat!) We put Haleigh in a onesie and kept her uncovered so she wouldn't get hot. Believe it or not it was cooler outside. Finally after about 2 hours the power came back on, right as we were going to bed too! I was beyond happy.

Yesterday was my brother's 15th birthday so we went to my grandma's to celebrate. John, my brother and my 3 cousins all went fishing down at the ravine by their house. I guess my brother caught a 16 inch bass but I doubt it was that big. 16 inches is huge! My aunt bought John and I some Mike's Hard Berry. Never had those but they were good!

I'm getting more and more excited about going back to Illinois. I'm just scared I won't want to leave when I get there. Oh well it will be nice seeing family and friends for a few days. It's better than nothing!

John has been out applying for jobs almost everyday. We plan to go for an hour or 2 every day. Hopefully he'll get a call back. Most places aren't hiring so it's difficult. I plan to just apply at Walmart and the Walmart grocery store (How weird is that?) If I get hired, awesome! If not, that's fine because John wants me to wait and see what hours he has with his job first.

I didn't realize how much stuff Haleigh had until we unpacked it all. She has more than any of us put together. There was so much that I haven't even seen before and didn't even know she had. One drawer is FULL will onesies, we have to use part of another drawer for the rest. We packed away all her preemie stuff because she's grown out of it. She is wearing 0-3 month clothes now and wearing size 1 diapers. I bet she's almost 9lbs! She is wanting to eat 30ml every 2 hours still. Sometimes she'll eat 90ml every 4 hours if we're lucky. She is making cooing-like noises quite a bit. She's starting to follow things a lot more so we went out and bought her some rattles and a mirror for her crib. She's finally sleeping in her crib, no more bassinet!!! Main reason being there's no room in here for it. Now I've just got to find a place to keep it. Our storage closet is already full.

Our stuff fits in our room pretty nicely. Better than I thought it would. Not much room to walk around but it's fine with me. Everything is fitting in the apartment good too. We still have way too much stuff for a tiny apartment.

My website should be up soon. My grandma is lending money to my mom to get her debit card fixed (it's negative $200) so after that gets settled I can give my mom the money for my site and upgrade it.

Well, I'm tired so I'm going back to sleep for awhile.

Aquarium

2006-07-09T23:54:21Z

Today we went to the aquarium with my aunt and all my cousins. It was awesome. Makes me want to be a marine biologist even more! Even though I'm afraid of deep water. I took some pictures that you can view here.

I have to go to the doctor for my eye. It's getting really red and there's a bump where Chloe scratched my eyeball. It doesn't hurt too bad but every once in awhile it will feel all bruised like I have a black eye.

Not much is really going on. Haleigh has been smiling a lot and cooing, it's adorable. I swore I heard her giggle earlier! Not sure if it really was or not but it sure sounded like it. She's very cranky. After she eats she cries a lot, but she's not hungry. So we've been giving her Mylicon drops with every feeding.

We got our stuff finally!!! The movers got here at 9am and were finished by 11am. We had fun talking with them, one guy was hilarious. All our stuff is here, nothing is missing. A few things broke but they were just a mirror and a piece of wood for my mom's dresser. We have our room set up but just have to finish putting all our clothes away.

We're going back to Illinois the 13th for sure and coming back on that Sunday. John's sister doesn't know anything about it so it will be a surprise. We'll spend most of the time visiting family and friends and finish cleaning our house there. I'm afraid that I won't want to leave once I get there. I know I won't want to leave but I have to. *sigh*

Well, I'm off to go eat and maybe go swimming for a little bit.

Can't wait

2006-07-08T12:40:55Z

We are going back to Illinois on the 13th and staying for about 2 days or so. We aren't telling John's sister we are coming, we're going to surprise her! It will be great, I can't wait to go back home.

The moving company is delivering our stuff this morning. They should be here before 9:00! I'm so happy we will have all our stuff FINALLY! Sleeping on air mattresses, sitting in lawn chairs and bean bags is not fun at all.

I'm waiting for my mom's debit card to get fixed, then I'll be paying for an upgrade on my account... so my website should be back up within a few days.

Well, I'm off to clean before the movers get here. I have a long day ahead of me!

HOME!

2006-07-07T18:20:33Z

I might be going ~~back to Peoria~~ HOME next weekend for a few days. My mom has to take my brother back since he still lives with my dad and John, Haleigh and I might go. I'm so excited that I might be going back there. I miss it so much!!! I thought I'd love being away but I hate it.

The main reason I want to go back is to see John's sister. She's back from Pittsburgh and it might be the only time she can see Haleigh. Her and her boyfriend broke up, yet again so she's back in Illinois trying to get her shit together. I hate it that as soon as we leave, she comes home.

I found out that our stuff is on it's way from Chicago. I guess since my mom called and bitched to them really worked. It would have been about another week or so and now it will be about 2 days or so. By Monday we'll have our stuff!!! I'm so happy, you couldn't begin to imagine. After we get everything I'm sure I'll be much happier.

I've been talking with my hosting company and they've been explaining to me why my bandwidth ran out. I guess a lot of people have been hotlinking my shit so from now on there will be no hotlinking, I'm taking the radio blog off, and several things will change.

Last night, John and I were on the patio and we heard someone upstairs saying "He dies, she dies, THEY ALL DIE!!!" It was scary, what a psycho. Nice neighbors I have, right?

Well, I'm off to get in the shower. We're going swimming again, I'm starting to get tan again. I've been tan every summer since I can remember until this year because I wasn't able to go outside for so long while I was pregnant. We're going swimming everyday and I lay out for about 20 minutes each day because I don't want to get burnt. It's nice that we found that "hidden" pool because barely anyone goes there. We went to the recreation center and it sucks. There's a pool table and a fooseball (sp?) table. That's it. The other fitness center is small but more private. Then tonight we're going to see Pirates of the Caribbean 2!

Later.

Wtf...?

2006-07-06T14:09:59Z

I'm writing here because my website is down right now. Somehow I've used up all my bandwidth for the month of July already and it's only the 6th. That makes no sense but whatever, I e-mailed them about it. I'm not too sure if anyone reads this or not but if you do then I'll be blogging here for awhile.

Yesterday was better than the other days. We went swimming in the morning. Found out they had another pool we didn't even know about. It's behind the townhomes and is hidden. They have another fitness center and a rec room! Also, we can rent movies overnight from the office. I thought that was pretty cool. And this new pool is actually smaller but not many people go there. The other pools (we have 4) were closed for some reason so luckily we found this one.

I'm in the process of finding a good pediatrician and GYN for me and Haleigh. I also plan to go to WIC today to get things set up down here. We have 2 more boxes (they each have 48 4oz bottles in them) left so we have some time before we run out.

John and I went to apply for jobs yesterday. We were gone for 3 hours and only got about 6 applications total. It was the damn traffic! I got tired so we went home.

I can't believe how nice the weather is in Oklahoma. There has only been one day where it's been cloudy (4th of July!) and it didn't even rain. The only bad thing is... it's HOT!!! It got to 98 degrees the other day. I'm used to about 90 degree weather. Except Illinois is very humid.

I'm still not thrilled to be here but I'm trying to make the best of it. I have times where I'm pissed off at the world and take it out on John and my mom. Sometimes even anyone I come in contact with (except Haleigh, nothing about her can make me mad!)

Last night as I was driving, I was in the turning lane and I got a green arrow so I had the right away, then a cop that was on the opposite side of the road in the lane that goes straight thought she had a green arrow, too so she decided to go ahead and go. She almost hits me, I slam on my breaks, she backs up realizing she wasn't supposed to go. I think it would have been funny if she hit me because well, she's a cop. Luckily Haleigh wasn't in the car because I had to slam on my brakes.

Haleigh is starting to smile a lot more. I'm not sure if they're real smiles but I like to believe they are. I couldn't believe how big they are! I would smile at her and she'd smile right back. She's also starting to coo which is so adorable. She wants to stay up a lot more, mostly at night (AH!) so we're trying to break that habit by keeping her up during the day. We started feeding her 3oz every 4 hours and now she is wanting to eat about 2oz every 2 hours. Not sure what that's about.

The moving company told my mom yesterday that they won't have another truck in for a WEEK! They were supposed to load everything onto a truck Monday. My mom calls them and starts snapping on them... they say they can hold our stuff for however long they want, and it was in the contract my mom signed. She read over the contract and it didn't say anything like that. She had them e-mail her a copy of the "contract" to show she signed it. It is bullshit, I am dying without all my stuff. We're sleeping on air mattresses, sitting in lawn chairs and bean bags, the laptop is up on a box, we're using my cousins tv (which I'm not complaining about, it's a plasma!) and we have barely any clothes to wear! Ugh. I hate stupid people.

Yesterday I was playing with my cat Chloe and she decided she wanted to be a little bitch and attack me. Well she scratched my fucking eye ball! Luckily it isn't too bad but it still hurt bad enough. We're now thinking about giving her away. She is turning mean and will attack people when they pick her up. I say no one pick her up, but then what about when Haleigh gets older, she won't know any better.

I'm going to die my hair BLACK! I want something different and that's something I've never tried. The only other way is blonde and I've tried that before, it turns orange. I can't get my hair to stay a dark red so I'm just going black. I'll have my grandma help me since she used to be a hair stylist.

Alright so that was pretty long but I am bored out of my mind. It's too early to go to the pool and there's nothing on tv. I can't work on my website so I'm stuck using this and Myspace. Hopefully I can upgrade my account by Saturday when I can get the money to my mom (it's $25 a month and I'm currently paying $15) so I can use her credit card.

I'm out.

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2006-05-27T00:19:50Z

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